i am a mess lately

i’m a mess lately…

it seems like there is no way i can control my ADHD and OCD — mixed it’s like killer combo to have huge ambition with what feels like zero consistency to make it happen. i look at all of my unfinished projects while coming up with a great idea for a new one, not realizing i’m the literal definition of insanity, but i would argue with whoever wrote the definition for this word or at minimum ask them if they would consider a clause for people like me.

nevertheless, my real life responsibilities continue with no regard on how prepared i am to get em’ done.

i could say so much more — complain so much more — create excuses as to why life is so damn hard.

transparently, i have been doing this things in my head for so long i have learned it is a literal road to no where, except maybe, to more complaining and making more excuses.

if mel robbins is right that no one is coming for you — it’s time i better start showing up for myself.

–B