The Upside to Mental Disorders
It’s who I am, and I deserve to embrace all parts of me, not just the ones most socially accepted by others.
If there’s a downside (to anything) I’m typically the first to find it.
At the time of this writing I can’t specifically state whether or not this comes innately – a gift from God – from my full list of diagnosed & undiagnosed mental disorders, trauma, environmental experiences or just a natural evolutionary disposition towards pessimism to live emotionally regulated from expectations VS reality... in whatever the official findings are as to why I am this way, it’s honestly all still brings on the same conclusion: I see the negative sides of life immediately.
Which I know now gives me such a great gift in that I get to choose to look for the wonderful, positive aspects of people and learn to embrace curiosity and patience. I don’t wish anymore that anything would come more naturally to me, instead I recognize that I’m entering a zone of life where I have something to learn, to grow deeper into. It seems as though the acceptance of my natural tendency to recognize the negative aspects of people & life has evolved me into being able to become immediately curious & interested to find the positive.
Strange how the full acceptance of all aspects of onself brings such a natural happiness, isn’t it?
– B
October 28, 2024 at 6:07 AM
This post was inspired by @ginneynoa’s Instagram reel as I sat scrolling this morning, which contrary to productivity experts is “not good” for one to do in the morning because in the morning apparently we should turn on our robot brains to plug into the matrix and immediately become productive, efficient, goal-oriented, focused, mature, adult, capable, predictable, consistent, reliable, unbending, disciplined, etc. etc. etc. Just a note: that advice is only relevant to the season of life you’re in and is not applicable for everyone at all times.